I decided to post on facebook about the existence of my blog because I felt like sharing with people. People are interested, which is weird, but okay. The thing is I still have this fear of writing for people to read, falling below their expectations, ruining their opinion of me. There are some people I like. I want them to like me. It's not that I put up a front when I'm around people, I'm just guarded. And when I can just sit and listen to music and write it really helps me. But the thought of other people reading my writing makes it much less candid. It makes me want to take down posts and try to make my blog presentable. There are a couple of issues with this, though. For one, if I'm writing with guards up that does more harm than good and it makes my writing crap. It's also impossible. If I cleaned this blog up and removed everything uncomfortable it would have very few posts. So maybe I need to buck up, send someone a carrier pigeon, and deal with some consequences. I'd rather not be keeping my stupid words to myself forever. Writing to oneself seems particularly pointless.
So I suppose I shall explain myself somewhat.
Hello hypothetical new reader.
There are some things you need to know.
There are some things that I don't tell everyone in the world. Some of these things I am very comfortable writing about. Suffice it to say that you will probably learn some unsavory things about me so try and brace yourself.
My writing is for the most part just a stream of consciousness. The posts I have planned out are still in my draft box, because I don't write like that.
I use a lot of disclaimers and swear words. Deal with it.
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