You blow my mind. I can't believe that someone like you wouldn't know what they're supposed to do with their life. Firstly, it's so obvious to me what your strengths are and I don't understand how it's not crystal clear. You love people. You love Jesus. You teach all the time. Clearly, you should be a dentist.
Secondly, you could do so many things, even if by some weird miracle you decide to do something else, I'm sure you can do it. Why are you worried?
This all makes me wonder if my strengths are visible to other people. And it makes me think how lame it is that what I want doesn't depend on strength or talent.
It's interesting, because people always say I should be a photographer or an artist or edit pictures or something. And it never crosses my mind as an option. That's just stuff I do and while it would be cool for people to appreciate my pictures, I don't want to do it for a job. I can't fathom people giving me money for it and I don't want to just bang out pictures for the money.
Sometimes I think about going to college, but for what? I want to be a wife. And sure I can and will do other things, but that's my priority. I was thinking about it a while ago, what one thing would I hate myself for missing the opportunity? There are some things I'd kind of like to do like travel or write but the thing that I most am afraid of is to have the chance to be with someone perfect and not take it and maybe that's a little strange but whatever that's what's in my mind.
It just sucks that my dream is not for a career because if I wanted to be a doctor I could do specific things to help achieve that dream. Since I may not be able to make my dream happen, what do I do? Just chill? Master making sandwiches?
I know in the back of my mind that at 16 I shouldn't be worried about my future but as more of my friends are going on with their lives it's on my mind all the time. It drives me crazy.
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